beautiful soul

this kid took my heart, i think he took my soul.
he doesnt even know how much he means to me
im never going to stop fighting.
people say its not worth it..
but i think it is. somethings that you get into are so powerful that they take over your whole body and mind. unfortunately he has one of those things. but i know he can over come them. there are so many things that i want to say to you but everytime i start to think about them i cant get them into words. i wish i knew how to talk to you, but lately i dont know how to. i dont want to say the wrong thing to push you away. and you told me you need me and not to turn my back so i wont. ever. i want to marry you one day..one day when this is all over, i know you're going to come back and be the person you were before, and know that i never loved you less and i never gave up. till the day i die, i wont give up on you because i believe in you and im always here. i know it may seem like its "always about me" but its not. i just want the best for you, and you know that. i love you more than anything. whats love after two months? well..i really dont think love can be measured by time or by weight. i cant explain how much i love you. its a process. a process that doesnt end. itll always be there. you just have to make it live.
your soul shines through your eyes. i saw it once i stepped foot out of my car to meet you at harleys for the "first" time. you had so much love. so much pain. jumbled together you didnt know what to do with it. but i know the real you, this isnt it. but itll come back. im praying for it to. and im praying for you to be okay. i love you so much matt ives.